What's on your mind?

[MoonRaven]

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[rocketpropelledbear]

Since when has a convertible SUV become a legit profitable business case to the point where Land Rover decided to build one as a production car? I guess some people on this planet have more money than sensibility.

[Cider]

it's cute how my depression and anxiety comes back once every two weeks. One day I'm like "aw yay I feel great I think I'm finally getting better" and the next I'm like "Goddamnit I wanna hang myself"

Hype hype hype hype hype
(I actually typed "hype" and not the f word because what's the point in that bruh)

Also, it's crazy that my 3DS case is already sold out. I'm glad I pre-ordered it, but I honestly didn't know DRRR was that popular o.O

[mangaluva]

*huggles Cider* I know that feel. I've just had a chunk of really down days where I have NOT done anything productive. No dissertation, no fanfic, no novel, not even writing about video games for class. I barely even got out of bed. But it helps that it passes again, y'know? It doesn't last. I dragged myself out to my dissertation meeting today thinking "I'm useless and can't do anything and this is fifteen pages of utter shit" and then my supervisor, who is the light of my life and the nicest person at the whole goddamn university, managed to cheer me up and make me go "hey I have actually hit all of my targets and I've drafted nearly the whole thing and I've got 6500/10000 words what am I worrying about I'm not shit". I love that woman.

SO have hugs and I hope you're back on the up again soon. *hugs*

OMM: This Hunger Games simulator is actually hella fun. Just ran one with my nuzlocke characters that had an unexpected winner, a surprise tsunami (KYOGRE CALM DOWN WE ALREADY PASSED THAT PART OF THE FIC) and one of my characters getting to hack her father up with a sword, which I think she enjoyed. I wonder if there's a similar simulator out there for Battle Royale...?

[Henry Gordan]

So our under sergeant training started yesterday. Even though "simputus"(giving orders in order to cause physical or mental illness or order to bully one in lower position) is illegal it's not really option to disobey a bit unnecessary commands. So what I mean it's quite mentally hard.

[miakakiri]

I AM SO READY FOR IT TO STOP BEING COLD. It's so bright and sunny outside and looks so nice and IT'S STILL BELOW FREAKING ZERO.

I am with you on that. We've had entirely too much cold, combined with a great deal of snow. Since it has been so cold, the snow can't melt, and then we get more and we have nowhere to PUT it. We got a little bit of melting a week ago or so, but it's back to cold-cold-COLD again and due to precipitate again this evening. ~_~* Please no.... Spring is coming, right? Right? Please?

I have Gotten Things Done today! I re-organized the Caffination Station, and cleared away a couple of things that didn't really need to be next to the door. I also got tax stuff all together and made an appointment. There's still more stuff to be done today, but I have definitely made some Progress.
Now if only I could manage to get anywhere useful on any of the various fics I've been trying to write. I need some help with crafting cases. ~_~*

[Cider]

*huggles Cider* I know that feel. I've just had a chunk of really down days where I have NOT done anything productive. No dissertation, no fanfic, no novel, not even writing about video games for class. I barely even got out of bed. But it helps that it passes again, y'know? It doesn't last. I dragged myself out to my dissertation meeting today thinking "I'm useless and can't do anything and this is fifteen pages of utter shit" and then my supervisor, who is the light of my life and the nicest person at the whole goddamn university, managed to cheer me up and make me go "hey I have actually hit all of my targets and I've drafted nearly the whole thing and I've got 6500/10000 words what am I worrying about I'm not shit". I love that woman.

SO have hugs and I hope you're back on the up again soon. *hugs*

OMM: This Hunger Games simulator is actually hella fun. Just ran one with my nuzlocke characters that had an unexpected winner, a surprise tsunami (KYOGRE CALM DOWN WE ALREADY PASSED THAT PART OF THE FIC) and one of my characters getting to hack her father up with a sword, which I think she enjoyed. I wonder if there's a similar simulator out there for Battle Royale...?

Aw manga, thank you so much. It means a lot to me to hear you say that. I'm sorry you share the feelings sometimes because I know it sucks and I don't want anyone to have to feel the same. Today was not as bad as yesterday, but then again I'm running on pure adrenaline and haven't slept in 36 hours >"> *hugs back* I hope you stay on the up. I have to admit, terrible days are somewhat less frequent than before so I keep telling myself that I'm improving. On the other hand, I kindaaaa just wanna end my life lol. I shouldn't joke but it's ironic and I try to laugh about it. >">

[kkslider5552000]

I feel legitimately really bad about being unable to do anything to help. Best I can think of is that if it at all helps, is that if you can think of anything, I'll try to help as best as I reasonably can.

For now, I will just wish you both win a million dollars and buy all the happiness you can take.

[MoonRaven]

I'm bored

[kkslider5552000]

I'm bored

No silly, you're MoonRaven. :VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

[Cider]

I feel legitimately really bad about being unable to do anything to help. Best I can think of is that if it at all helps, is that if you can think of anything, I'll try to help as best as I reasonably can.

For now, I will just wish you both win a million dollars and buy all the happiness you can take.

Dude slider, please don't feel bad. I can't ask for anything from you yet you just being around and reading my stupid, incomprehensible rant means that you care enough and that's all I need. I can never thank you enough for just being here, so please don't feel bad about not being able to help. Trust me, you are helping so much more than you can imagine. *hugs* thank you.
I'm not suicidal so if anyone's worried about it, I'm sorry to trouble you. Everytime I think about jumping in front of a train, I can see my mom devastated and taking her own life because I'm her only child and I can never, ever do that to her. Oftentimes I wish I could do the thing Hermione did in hp where she erased herself from her loved ones' memories. If I could ever do that, I might then be able to end all this misery once and for all but I can't. Therefore, rest assured that I'll stick around and not do stupid things.
About three years ago, when I was at absolute rock bottom with ptsd and depression and all kinds of other stuff, I really did want to take my life as a hype you to the world, like, hey, you left me all by myself and you did this to me and now I'm dead, congratulations. I really wanted to do that. But then I realized that I wouldn't hurt the people hurting me, the only people who would ever be sad are the ones that actually care. So I didn't kill myself. If I didn't do it then, I won't do it now.
It just sucks, you know. All these chemicals in your head really can mess you up. Depression is scary. So if you know someone with depression, honestly, just letting them know you're there is more than good enough.
Sorry for the rant guys.

[Jecka]

I'm bored

No silly, you're MoonRaven. :VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

*kicks Slider out for a while*

[bluekaitou1412]

I don't really feel like doing anything nowadays... it's been going on for weeks now. I still have two research papers to finish and a pile of critical essays to write but there's no point, is there, though, to write about tedious things like how this story is totally Marxist or feminist or whichever (why can't we just read the stories and talk about them without forcing some ideology or deep profound shit up its...)?

Ugh. I hate how I feel guilty about this. I know I shouldn't be. *rewatches old Conan episodes*

[Henry Gordan]

Uuh we are going to have 20 km long march on Sunday... Not that I wouldn't like marching more than running but still. I would love to have skiing march.

We will have a little bit longer weekend next wweek. Just looking for it.

[MoonRaven]

I'm bored

No silly, you're MoonRaven. :VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

Let me rephrase that then. I'm BO Red. :V

*kicks Slider out for a while*

*high fives Jecka*