I didn´t really know where to write this, but it kinda felt right to put it here:
I wanna write something about Shinichi/Conan, who´s without saying probably the most important person to Ai/Shiho and Ran, also many other people hold him very dear.
I noticed that many blames him for beeing "stupid" cause he don´t get/understand the feelings of the girls.
I don´t think like those people that that one is his biggest problem. No one can understand another human so well, that he can read his heart to his own stasification. So that´s okay since it´s also one important point in this story.^g^
No, what i think is that his greatest problem is that he doesn´t care enough for himself. Don´t get me wrong, i´m not talking about the Shinichi we got to know at the very beginning, i mean his realtionships with his friends/family/the ones who loves him.
Conan/Shinichi is a hero (of cource
) so he can´t stand the thought to see the ones he cares for beeing hurt or in danger. So naturally he does everything to protect them, putting himself in danger or getting hurt by this actions.
Thats what a hero do, right?
What i want to say is, that he thinks that as long as the others are round and safe, it´s okay whatever happens to him.
We all know that he want to protect everyone no matter the cost, even criminals and their kin are in his concerne. Quite a noble hero we have here, huh? But he´s also a "blind" one, i want to say.
Look at what he had done already in those past 700 chapters: He saved a lot of people, a few more times a few less. He couldn´t save all and blames himself for it, he often tries to take the burden and risk all by himself, letting the others out.
In my eyes he throws away his life rather easily. For example the case with the bomb in the elevator, to save hundreds of faceless people for only two humans lifes. A good trade, isn´t it? But whats with those who are left behind?
Shinichi/Conan don´t understand it well, that whatever happens to him hurts the ones he wants to protect as much as it would have happen to themself. They´re a very lot of people who hold him very dear unless which form he has taken. But he doesn´t get it the right way and doesn´t take care of himself.
He hate it to see others hurt, but doesn´t mind getting himself hurt. Cause of of this way of thinging he doesn´t understand who much he hurts the ones who helds him dear when they see him beeing hurt.
Whatever he does he tries to put the others out of the dange zone, the case where Vermouth were Araide for example: His mother and Heiji were on that party, a almost safe place. The prof was in his car, away from the scene and Ai was closed away at home. Ran was supposed to be at home, too.
But his plan didn´t go as he predicted it: Ai and also Ran showed us that they doesn´t want to be left out, Heiji and Agasa are the same.
They want to help him, share his burden, want to know what troubes him or what he fears. Still Shinichi/Conan has a "distanz" in that matter to the others. He doesn´t belong to himself, risking his life to save the ones who are dear to you is a good thing, but letting them out of thoses actions hurts them more than being hurt.
Shinichi doesn´t belong only to himself, but he act that way. We fell joy and sadness cause we are bound to other people, we relate to them and share something with them. There´s no single peron who can be free of others. That makes us fell this emotions and also love.
But Shinichi´s onyl halfway to that. he shows sometimes times of weakness, fear, despair or questions himself cause he´s unsure. But he doesn´t want to share his burden, his risk with others.
To Ai he doesn´t want to talk about being in the eye of the BO cause he doesn´t want her to feel fear and that she should live a happy life.
To Ran he doesn´t say anything about his situaton cause he doesn´t want her to worry about him and enjoy her life she has right now.
To Heiji he tried to let him out of the BO-case cause he knows Heiji would be as much as himself in danger when he helps him.
And so on and so on.
We all know how often Conan/Shinichi ends up hurt cause he risks something to save someones life, that a good act from him, but it´s stupid whe he fully kowningly rsiks his life and doesn´t think about how the others would fell left behind when he would die (something that won´t happen, i know
).
Shinichi has quite grwon in those 700 chapters, that dude at the very beginning is almost no more there, he´s more mature now. But he´s still not mature enough to accept that he can´t save everyone, that he can´t let them all out in all his actions, that he have to trust them, work with them and share everything with them what also include the risks
Remember that time when Agasa was angry cause Shinichi didn´t tell him right away what was the case? And at the same time, that Ai heard that Conan didn´t tell Agasa all cause he doesn´t want her to be troubled? Or Ran in the car after a case where she suspects Conan to be Shinichi again and she asks herself why he doesn´t open up to her and trust her with telling her everything?
What to you think would they fell when he dies, protecting them? Do you think they would be grate- and thankful to him when they stand crying over his grave? I think that Shinichi doesn´t see all the other consequences when he gets hurt, he just see that he "saved someone".
Also remember: All Superheros so far had problems with their superpowers cause they want to protect the ones they love, but the ones who held thoses heros dear are left out and cause of that hurt in a way no superpower can heal.
Or Junpei Matsuda, His death was heroic cause he saved hundreds of people with his death. It was also stupide cause he wasn´t able to fulfill the promise with his best friend who died and he also left the woman behind that he cares so much for and who loved him.
Think about it: When Shinichi/Conan is able to defeat the BO with sacrificing his live, would it compensate the sorrow, the pain and the grief of thoses he wanted to protect and who loves him?
I dont think so and i guess Shinichi also didn´t think about this possiblity that he could do a fault and die cause of it.
Another question: When Shinichi weren´t abel to solved the mystery back in the bomb elevator case; would he or would he not capped the cabel? What do you think?
Well, thats all so far. Just a few thoughts i had in my head.
pranks and jokes and etc ..... but i think Ran will find Shiho friendship with shinichi painful like in Live Action DC Movie 2 specificaly if they turned bak and still didnt destroy the BO cause they'll have conversations ran cant share with them, and also if she saw her wearing shinichi's caps
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